My Story

I am a single mother of two wonderful boys. I love them and Yahweh with all my heart, and it is my goal in life to bring Him glory in all that I do. Unfortunately, I mess that up a lot, but that is my heart’s desire.

       As many have, when I was 16 years old, I considered ending my life, but then Yahweh stepped in. Scriptures my mother had spoken over me all my life played over and over in my mind, "Greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world." (1 John 4:4), and “Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning." (Psalm 30:5). When I was in that darkness and confusion my childhood faith became a saving, healing, delivering reality. Not long after, I lost someone very near and dear to me to suicide. Thomas was my childhood friend, and as the years passed, we grew closer, and he became my boyfriend. He was precious, brilliant, and had such a wonderful soul! When I went away to college and came home on my first Christmas break, I received a phone call that took my breath, knocked me to my knees and forever changed the direction of my life. Thomas had taken his life.

       The grief and tremendous loss were like a stone in deep water.... rippling out in circles touching life after life with questions, fear, and sorrow. But Yahweh! I was forever changed that night. The desire to tell a story... the whole story... but what story was I trying to tell? Instead of writing journal entries I wrote scenes. Those scenes played out in my mind like a movie over and over throughout the next 14 years and would become the first full length feature film by Far More Productions; This Too Shall Pass.

        In December of 2014, I met up with an old family friend and started talking about This Too Shall Pass Film for the first time in years. He told me he felt the Holy Spirit all over it, and that I needed to get it completed because it could save lives of those considering taking their own life, and to help those who have lost loved ones to suicide. The very next month, January of 2015, the man that was once the love of my life, my sons' father, my husband, John, took his life. John was outgoing, friendly and fun-loving. Everyone who met him fell in love with him. I cannot tell John’s story, but I will say, he was a precious man with a good heart, and I loved him very much!

       Out of deep grief, Adonai (My Lord) restored my soul and birthed in me a desire to make a difference. I knew I had to shine a light on the deep despair and emptiness that leads many to such a hopeless act. Psalm 119:105 says "Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path." It was Scripture, the inspired Word of Yahweh, that was planted in my spirit as a child that got me through.

       There are many hot lines out there that work to avert our attention from the momentary crisis, but when the voice on the other end of the phone is gone... what do we have? There again we are alone with our thoughts and do not know what steps to take. Just because we sweep those thoughts out of our minds at that moment does not mean that they will not come back. Then what? I believe we all need counseling, on a regular basis, to combat the voices in our minds, and to have that support system we were created to need. In Genesis 2:18, Yahweh says it is not good for man to be alone. We need each other!

For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:17-18