Honestly

Let's get real!

       How does it feel when someone you love and care about deeply, someone that you feel very close to, lies to your face, or puts on a “brave face”, when if they would just be real with you, you could help them? Is that not what we do to Yahweh all the time? Under the guise of “not complaining.”

       Being raised in the church there is this underlying lesson taught that “you don’t ever tell God how He messed up.” or “You don’t dare complain to God.” While there is definitely a good principal under there somewhere, the Word says that we are to boldly come to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and receive His grace in our time of need. (Hebrews 4:16) If we do not come to Him with honesty, then what is the point of coming to Him at all? Please hear my heart. 

       Obviously, we are to come to His throne humbly, and with honor. You can do that and be honest at the same time. His word clearly states to be anxious for nothing! Instead, in prayer and supplication (praying earnestly and humbly) with thanksgiving we are to let our requests be made known unto Him! Then the peace of Yahweh that passes all understanding will guard our hearts and minds through Christ Yeshua. (Philippians 4:6-7)

      First off, if He straight up commands us to be anxious for nothing, then there is nothing we have the right to be anxious about. Just being real, anxieties will still come even when you totally get this concept, that is why we must renew our minds daily with the Word! (Romans 12:2) Yahweh designed us to go to Him moment by moment, issue by issue, glory to glory, so is it not just like the enemy to make us feel guilty about needing Yahweh so much, what we were actually created to do. 

       Take some time to sit with our Heavenly Father. Ask Him if there is anything you have been hiding from Him. Even if it is something that you are disappointed in Him about. I know how that sounds... let me explain.

        It took me finally asking Yahweh specifically to show me if there was anything with which I did not trust Him. He then reminded me of the years I prayed for my husband to get help, and to come back to us and for our family to be restored. Then, on the night he took his life I prayed for 5 hours straight for Yeshua to save him.

       When I received the news that it was over, he was gone, all hope was lost, a part of me died. That trust in Yeshua to save him was gone. I knew in my mind that it was my husband's choice out of his own free will, but my soul was wounded. I never saw it that way though. How can you trust Yahweh for something that is in the past? My husband was gone, what sense did it make to trust Yahweh for our marriage to be saved? That was not the point. The point was that I never talked to Him about how I was disappointed that He did not save him, because I was taught that you do not question God, nor do you complain to God. Instead, I shoved it way down deep within and never realized it was an issue I even needed to deal with.

       Be honest with yourself, is there something that are not being honest with Him about that you may have shoved so down deep you did not even realize it was there? Or are there disappointments you would not dare be honest with Him about in fear of “disrespecting Him?” That's why we need to sit with Him and ask Him to reveal it to us so that we can deal with it. Otherwise, it will continue to cause us problems that we cannot understand.

       Have you ever heard the saying, "God reveals what He wants to heal?" He wants to heal us. He wants us to be made whole in HIM! He is not disappointed in us for having resentments, He just does not want us to hold on to them because of the negative impact they have on our lives. I encourage you to sit with Him, ask Him to reveal what is blocking you from trusting Him, and ask Him to heal you so that you can be present and not stuck in the past! Let's talk about that trust...